My motivation is saving lives. Whether in uniform in 2012 Afghanistan or warning about a 9/11 style attack in 1997, I was trying but failing to save lives. The only reason I’m whistleblowing now is to save lives by exposing the Deep State that provokes wars with acts of terrorism against their own populations - up to and including complicity in the 9/11 attacks. They must be stopped. I am extremely stressed and under constant aggrevation (since 2013) but I have no intention of harming myself or anyone else. I want to live so I can give my testimony and be cross examined under oath.